Is it Really Worth it?

Emo picture I know. Bare with me.

So the question is what do you do if love drifts apart? I mean 2 people drift apart? What do you do? Do you just stand by and do nothing?

Why do people commit to love each other but then after a while their love grows cold?

Isn't it true that when you commit to love somebody, that you stick with that person through thick and thin?

Yes yes, I know we're selfish human beings and we break our promises and we don't always mean what we say (I know I'm like that at times). But when God breathed into our nostrils, He breathed love into us as well. With love comes pain I know that as well. You can't have true love for somebody/anybody without a measure of pain for that person as well. I just wish we could stop looking at other people's faults or failures and realize that we got them as well. Why can't we just see the good in people? Why do we always have to see the negative in people? People will be people just like we are. Can't we just cut each other some slack?

Staying Strong in the Middle of a Storm

Ohhh the storms of life...don't we all love them? Well, I'm not a huge fan myself :)
It's hard and uncomfortable but that is where we grow the most. I mean that's where Peter learned to have the most faith...in the midst of the storm and what's more...he had to walk on water to his Mentor Who believed in "learning on the job." That takes crazy faith to do that! I want that crazy faith as well. It doesn't come easy...the thing about having faith...is having to practice it. It can't just lay dormant...you have to get out there and practice by being obedient to God's voice. Yes, I know "Look who's talking." I wanna get out there and do what God wants me to do....but I think God gives us opportunity everyday to do something for someone even if it just a smile. I'm learning that if God sees us faithful in the little, He can trust us with sooo much more!

That's it for today :)

I Found Love

You know how I'm always talking abt life not being a fairy tale and whatnot...well, I found someone who loves me for me (cheesey I know but what the hey...just go with it ok?) He doesn't care what I did in the past (oh the past...gotto loooove that topic :P) and he thinks I'm beautiful. :) I feel safe in his arms n I don't have to wear a mask with him (whatever u do it too). I don't think I am in love...I AM IN LOVE!

The Beauty of Disappointment

Catchy title eh?
Well yea let's go with it :)
Sometimes you get disappointed so many times that you don't even feel it anymore (or more like you numb yourself not to feel it anyway). Yea yea pessimism again...I know but there's something beautiful about it too. What could possibly be beautiful about disappointment you might ask? Well, the beauty is that you can still manage to love the person who disappointed you. That's the beauty of it! That same person can disappoint you so much that your heart is broken into a thousand pieces every time and yet your love for that person is still incredibly strong. That is what I call complicated love. That's enough pessimism for one day...haha maybe but definitely not enough sarcasm :)

It's been a while!

Ok..ok...ok...it's been three months but then again no body really reads this blog anyway :P
I'm writing to my invisible audience.

Well, here we go:

Life has been interesting. I think I finally figured out what I wanna do with my life. It's been a struggle I will admit. But then again, life goes on and sometimes you're caught in the middle of all the craziness! You get to this deep crevice (like how I used a big word?) where you feel stuck and confused (but at least not as bad as puberty T-T),and you ask the inevitable questions: "Who am I?" "Why am I here?" Yea well, that's what you get during senior year....everyone around is talking about going off to college and their careers and that's great but seriously................what about the rest of us? Hah....well, I'm not a religious nut but I do however want to be in God's will for my life. It's hard to try and figure out what exactly that is. I felt like (and still do actually) like a eagle (yea yea bare with me ok)whose wing has been broken because of wanting to fly solo. Wanting to do everything by myself. Look where that got me :P not far...
Oooh I know I sound pessimistic today but then again pessimism is needed sometimes u know.
Okkkkk.......I'm going to Israel or at least planning on it. You weren't expecting that one eh? Hah me neither really....but I think I really wanna go and I know it's not gonna be the way I expect it to be because life is most definitely not a fairy tale. Learnt that the beautifully hard way (heh dropped an oxymoron on you). Let's just see what He does with my life.

Going to Indonesia

I haven't been in over a year!!!! Finally I get to go back my dear sweet Rachel :D
I get to see my sweet baby Shannon again...oh but she's soooo big already
Anyway, keep me in your prayers.

Anatomy T-T

I'm now sitting in the computer lab next to Anita my gangstaaa buddy :D anyway, I'm supposed to write this research paper thing for anatomy and I don't really feel like it! Anyway, focusing on happier things last night was a lot of fun!!! Went to Steven and Barbara's house for thanksgiving dinner and got to play Plants vs. Zombies with Sarah-Jayne, the cutest 4 year old in the world! *sighs* here I come anatomy research paper T-T

Going running with Julz

I'm going on a running date with my sweet friend Julie

Hee

I just watched Letters to Juliet for the 100th time! I think it's a sweet movie :D

Sure that probably never happens in real life but there's nothing wrong with daydreaming a little.

---People of Irony---

Why do people say they don't want
hardships but actually they look for
drama everywhere they go?!

It boggles my mind sometimes
I love to use that phrase.
People say they don't want to get
hurt when they actually go out
and look for it. I'm not perfect
and I still do alot of mistakes
but it is very silly for me to go
and look for trouble or danger or
drama. Why do we do these things?
Why do we want trouble when it's
unnecessary? Why do we want to
get hurt when actually hurt is our
biggest fear? Why do we yearn
for rejection when we try to run
from it? We are a people of irony!
Why are we so afriad to show who
we really are? Because of what people
might think? It's their opinion, and
opinion isn't necessarily the truth.
We humans are amazing, complex,
and complicated!