I Found Love

You know how I'm always talking abt life not being a fairy tale and whatnot...well, I found someone who loves me for me (cheesey I know but what the hey...just go with it ok?) He doesn't care what I did in the past (oh the past...gotto loooove that topic :P) and he thinks I'm beautiful. :) I feel safe in his arms n I don't have to wear a mask with him (whatever u do it too). I don't think I am in love...I AM IN LOVE!

The Beauty of Disappointment

Catchy title eh?
Well yea let's go with it :)
Sometimes you get disappointed so many times that you don't even feel it anymore (or more like you numb yourself not to feel it anyway). Yea yea pessimism again...I know but there's something beautiful about it too. What could possibly be beautiful about disappointment you might ask? Well, the beauty is that you can still manage to love the person who disappointed you. That's the beauty of it! That same person can disappoint you so much that your heart is broken into a thousand pieces every time and yet your love for that person is still incredibly strong. That is what I call complicated love. That's enough pessimism for one day...haha maybe but definitely not enough sarcasm :)

It's been a while!

Ok..ok...ok...it's been three months but then again no body really reads this blog anyway :P
I'm writing to my invisible audience.

Well, here we go:

Life has been interesting. I think I finally figured out what I wanna do with my life. It's been a struggle I will admit. But then again, life goes on and sometimes you're caught in the middle of all the craziness! You get to this deep crevice (like how I used a big word?) where you feel stuck and confused (but at least not as bad as puberty T-T),and you ask the inevitable questions: "Who am I?" "Why am I here?" Yea well, that's what you get during senior year....everyone around is talking about going off to college and their careers and that's great but seriously................what about the rest of us? Hah....well, I'm not a religious nut but I do however want to be in God's will for my life. It's hard to try and figure out what exactly that is. I felt like (and still do actually) like a eagle (yea yea bare with me ok)whose wing has been broken because of wanting to fly solo. Wanting to do everything by myself. Look where that got me :P not far...
Oooh I know I sound pessimistic today but then again pessimism is needed sometimes u know.
Okkkkk.......I'm going to Israel or at least planning on it. You weren't expecting that one eh? Hah me neither really....but I think I really wanna go and I know it's not gonna be the way I expect it to be because life is most definitely not a fairy tale. Learnt that the beautifully hard way (heh dropped an oxymoron on you). Let's just see what He does with my life.

Going to Indonesia

I haven't been in over a year!!!! Finally I get to go back my dear sweet Rachel :D
I get to see my sweet baby Shannon again...oh but she's soooo big already
Anyway, keep me in your prayers.

Anatomy T-T

I'm now sitting in the computer lab next to Anita my gangstaaa buddy :D anyway, I'm supposed to write this research paper thing for anatomy and I don't really feel like it! Anyway, focusing on happier things last night was a lot of fun!!! Went to Steven and Barbara's house for thanksgiving dinner and got to play Plants vs. Zombies with Sarah-Jayne, the cutest 4 year old in the world! *sighs* here I come anatomy research paper T-T

Going running with Julz

I'm going on a running date with my sweet friend Julie

Hee

I just watched Letters to Juliet for the 100th time! I think it's a sweet movie :D

Sure that probably never happens in real life but there's nothing wrong with daydreaming a little.

---People of Irony---

Why do people say they don't want
hardships but actually they look for
drama everywhere they go?!

It boggles my mind sometimes
I love to use that phrase.
People say they don't want to get
hurt when they actually go out
and look for it. I'm not perfect
and I still do alot of mistakes
but it is very silly for me to go
and look for trouble or danger or
drama. Why do we do these things?
Why do we want trouble when it's
unnecessary? Why do we want to
get hurt when actually hurt is our
biggest fear? Why do we yearn
for rejection when we try to run
from it? We are a people of irony!
Why are we so afriad to show who
we really are? Because of what people
might think? It's their opinion, and
opinion isn't necessarily the truth.
We humans are amazing, complex,
and complicated!

Who?

Whose shoulder is this?

It's warm and tear-stained

It's firm and comforting

It's strong like a soldier's

But gentle like a father's

Whose shoulder is this?

Whose voice is this?

It's soft and peaceful

It's authoritative but humble

It's strict but encouraging

This that speaks of immense forgiveness

Whose voice is this?

Whose heart-beat is this?

It was one that was silent for awhile

It was one that beat again

It was one that broke away the bondage

And it's still beating, beating, beating

Whose heart-beat is this?

Who is this man I see?

He is a man of majesty

He is a man of humility

His hands and feet, they speak, of the scars

His back is marked with lashes

Because of love which led to sacrifice

For you and for me

Who is this man I see?

True Believers

Some people say that the gifts of the Holy Spirit and the power of the Lord working in and through His people is not for today any more. I think that is nonsense because the world is going from bad to worse. That is why we do need the gifts of the Holy Spirit and the power and the love of the Lord working in and through us to reach out and be His light in this world to the people out there! It should be even now, even in the last days, even everyday in the life of a true believer.

There is no such scripture in the Bible that states that the gifts of the Holy Spirit and the power of the Lord working through His people was only to establish the church. Yes, there is this scripture about prophecies will fail, tongues will cease, knowlegde will vanish away, but if you look at that scripture carefully it says love never fails but whether there are prophecies they will fail, whether there are tongues they will cease, and whether there is knowledge it will vanish away. So we see love never fails, if we have the true love, Agape, God kind of love, the power of God will be upon our lives, and signs and wonders will follow us wherever we go. So we see that prophecies and all thoses things can fail because God uses a human instrument to bring over what He wants to say. Human instruments aren't always 100% correct but Agape love, the God kind of love, never fails because it is perfect!

My Bible clearly tells me that Jesus is the same yesterday, today, and forever! He never changes...what He did or said 2000 years ago can still be done today through our lives!