Is it Really Worth it?

Emo picture I know. Bare with me.

So the question is what do you do if love drifts apart? I mean 2 people drift apart? What do you do? Do you just stand by and do nothing?

Why do people commit to love each other but then after a while their love grows cold?

Isn't it true that when you commit to love somebody, that you stick with that person through thick and thin?

Yes yes, I know we're selfish human beings and we break our promises and we don't always mean what we say (I know I'm like that at times). But when God breathed into our nostrils, He breathed love into us as well. With love comes pain I know that as well. You can't have true love for somebody/anybody without a measure of pain for that person as well. I just wish we could stop looking at other people's faults or failures and realize that we got them as well. Why can't we just see the good in people? Why do we always have to see the negative in people? People will be people just like we are. Can't we just cut each other some slack?

Staying Strong in the Middle of a Storm

Ohhh the storms of life...don't we all love them? Well, I'm not a huge fan myself :)
It's hard and uncomfortable but that is where we grow the most. I mean that's where Peter learned to have the most faith...in the midst of the storm and what's more...he had to walk on water to his Mentor Who believed in "learning on the job." That takes crazy faith to do that! I want that crazy faith as well. It doesn't come easy...the thing about having faith...is having to practice it. It can't just lay dormant...you have to get out there and practice by being obedient to God's voice. Yes, I know "Look who's talking." I wanna get out there and do what God wants me to do....but I think God gives us opportunity everyday to do something for someone even if it just a smile. I'm learning that if God sees us faithful in the little, He can trust us with sooo much more!

That's it for today :)

I Found Love

You know how I'm always talking abt life not being a fairy tale and whatnot...well, I found someone who loves me for me (cheesey I know but what the hey...just go with it ok?) He doesn't care what I did in the past (oh the past...gotto loooove that topic :P) and he thinks I'm beautiful. :) I feel safe in his arms n I don't have to wear a mask with him (whatever u do it too). I don't think I am in love...I AM IN LOVE!

The Beauty of Disappointment

Catchy title eh?
Well yea let's go with it :)
Sometimes you get disappointed so many times that you don't even feel it anymore (or more like you numb yourself not to feel it anyway). Yea yea pessimism again...I know but there's something beautiful about it too. What could possibly be beautiful about disappointment you might ask? Well, the beauty is that you can still manage to love the person who disappointed you. That's the beauty of it! That same person can disappoint you so much that your heart is broken into a thousand pieces every time and yet your love for that person is still incredibly strong. That is what I call complicated love. That's enough pessimism for one day...haha maybe but definitely not enough sarcasm :)

It's been a while!

Ok..ok...ok...it's been three months but then again no body really reads this blog anyway :P
I'm writing to my invisible audience.

Well, here we go:

Life has been interesting. I think I finally figured out what I wanna do with my life. It's been a struggle I will admit. But then again, life goes on and sometimes you're caught in the middle of all the craziness! You get to this deep crevice (like how I used a big word?) where you feel stuck and confused (but at least not as bad as puberty T-T),and you ask the inevitable questions: "Who am I?" "Why am I here?" Yea well, that's what you get during senior year....everyone around is talking about going off to college and their careers and that's great but seriously................what about the rest of us? Hah....well, I'm not a religious nut but I do however want to be in God's will for my life. It's hard to try and figure out what exactly that is. I felt like (and still do actually) like a eagle (yea yea bare with me ok)whose wing has been broken because of wanting to fly solo. Wanting to do everything by myself. Look where that got me :P not far...
Oooh I know I sound pessimistic today but then again pessimism is needed sometimes u know.
Okkkkk.......I'm going to Israel or at least planning on it. You weren't expecting that one eh? Hah me neither really....but I think I really wanna go and I know it's not gonna be the way I expect it to be because life is most definitely not a fairy tale. Learnt that the beautifully hard way (heh dropped an oxymoron on you). Let's just see what He does with my life.

Going to Indonesia

I haven't been in over a year!!!! Finally I get to go back my dear sweet Rachel :D
I get to see my sweet baby Shannon again...oh but she's soooo big already
Anyway, keep me in your prayers.

Anatomy T-T

I'm now sitting in the computer lab next to Anita my gangstaaa buddy :D anyway, I'm supposed to write this research paper thing for anatomy and I don't really feel like it! Anyway, focusing on happier things last night was a lot of fun!!! Went to Steven and Barbara's house for thanksgiving dinner and got to play Plants vs. Zombies with Sarah-Jayne, the cutest 4 year old in the world! *sighs* here I come anatomy research paper T-T

Going running with Julz

I'm going on a running date with my sweet friend Julie

Hee

I just watched Letters to Juliet for the 100th time! I think it's a sweet movie :D

Sure that probably never happens in real life but there's nothing wrong with daydreaming a little.

---People of Irony---

Why do people say they don't want
hardships but actually they look for
drama everywhere they go?!

It boggles my mind sometimes
I love to use that phrase.
People say they don't want to get
hurt when they actually go out
and look for it. I'm not perfect
and I still do alot of mistakes
but it is very silly for me to go
and look for trouble or danger or
drama. Why do we do these things?
Why do we want trouble when it's
unnecessary? Why do we want to
get hurt when actually hurt is our
biggest fear? Why do we yearn
for rejection when we try to run
from it? We are a people of irony!
Why are we so afriad to show who
we really are? Because of what people
might think? It's their opinion, and
opinion isn't necessarily the truth.
We humans are amazing, complex,
and complicated!

Who?

Whose shoulder is this?

It's warm and tear-stained

It's firm and comforting

It's strong like a soldier's

But gentle like a father's

Whose shoulder is this?

Whose voice is this?

It's soft and peaceful

It's authoritative but humble

It's strict but encouraging

This that speaks of immense forgiveness

Whose voice is this?

Whose heart-beat is this?

It was one that was silent for awhile

It was one that beat again

It was one that broke away the bondage

And it's still beating, beating, beating

Whose heart-beat is this?

Who is this man I see?

He is a man of majesty

He is a man of humility

His hands and feet, they speak, of the scars

His back is marked with lashes

Because of love which led to sacrifice

For you and for me

Who is this man I see?

True Believers

Some people say that the gifts of the Holy Spirit and the power of the Lord working in and through His people is not for today any more. I think that is nonsense because the world is going from bad to worse. That is why we do need the gifts of the Holy Spirit and the power and the love of the Lord working in and through us to reach out and be His light in this world to the people out there! It should be even now, even in the last days, even everyday in the life of a true believer.

There is no such scripture in the Bible that states that the gifts of the Holy Spirit and the power of the Lord working through His people was only to establish the church. Yes, there is this scripture about prophecies will fail, tongues will cease, knowlegde will vanish away, but if you look at that scripture carefully it says love never fails but whether there are prophecies they will fail, whether there are tongues they will cease, and whether there is knowledge it will vanish away. So we see love never fails, if we have the true love, Agape, God kind of love, the power of God will be upon our lives, and signs and wonders will follow us wherever we go. So we see that prophecies and all thoses things can fail because God uses a human instrument to bring over what He wants to say. Human instruments aren't always 100% correct but Agape love, the God kind of love, never fails because it is perfect!

My Bible clearly tells me that Jesus is the same yesterday, today, and forever! He never changes...what He did or said 2000 years ago can still be done today through our lives!

Good question!

Are we really Christian? I read stories of many people who gave their lives to Christ and had such a miraculous transformation! Then sometimes I feel I'm close to the Lord and other times I feel like He hadn't become real to me.......I love Him soooo much! I reallly do love Him.....and I want Him to be real for me...because I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that He is real and powerful and amazing........sometimes I read how some people can spend hours praying but then others not......He is amazing and powerful and real! I have no doubt! Did He really become real to you? I love Him sooo much! I just want His love to be strong in my life.....I don't wanna pray and then continue living my life the way I live it....and just go back to same old habits and stuff. I want to be transformed by the renewing of my mind. Like Joyce Meyer said your mind is really a battlefield! I love the Lord with all my heart but sometimes I wonder if I'm being fake or real? Do we really love the Lord and have that love as Corinthians 13 talks about?

Me and my mom just came back from Batam and it was very fun! We had delicious food and stayed at the nicest peoples house...who have the cutest baby boy! It was soooo fun......we had a chance to really become good friends with these wonderful Indonesian people!

My dearest Shannon!

This is a story about a very beautiful and special baby who is now 3 years old and very dear to my heart!

Her name is Shannon....she was born normal like any other baby...then six days later she got sick and the doctor didn't give her the wrong medication and then she got cerebal palsy....and they said she is deaf and won't be able to walk. She was born in Indonesia. Because of her...most of her family gave their lives to the Lord. They say she can't get better....but ever since me and my family have been with her...we are just seeing improvements...getting stronger and better by the day....and woa she is very tall for her age ^^

Anyway, she is indeed a miracle and I know that the Lord will completely and totally heal her! I believe it with my whole heart! She is absolutely beautiful and everytime i hold her I can feel peace flowing from her and she is just soooo sweet. I love her soooo much and I would ask that you all please pray for her as well. That soon I believe she'll be able to go to a normal school. And testify of the miraculous work of the Lord in her life!

I love to be young and just enjoy everything the Lord has given me=)

Heyyyyyy everybody! Well, today a pastor prophesied to me that the Lord wants me to enjoy my young life and that the Lord will first soak me in His love and then He will give me the wisdom....and that's such a confirmation because the Lord has told me before that He will give me His love and that it will flow through me touching others....i don't wanna be proud but i'm excited coz it's like a confirmation!!! He is soooo awesome...one other thing the pastor said was that I will fall more in love with the Lord! And i really really want that! I don't wanna be lukewarm or lose my first love for Him! Sometimes it feels like it! But then i remind myself that I must rejoice and be happy! Because His joy will be my strength! I love You soooooooooooooooo much my sweet Lord....the Lover of my soul!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Random Stuff On My Mind

I'm starting a new school in August...kinda nervous O.o meeting new people...learning....tests...exams...but yea I know the Lord will give me the motivation and strength to always carry on.
I've also been thinking alot about giving it all to the Lord, because I mean His Word is full of Scriptures that say that we must give all of us to Him...and that He will take care of us. Just sometimes it's so difficult to give my whole self to the Lord...to completely give everything to Him...but I really really want to. And slowly but surely I've been giving more and more of myself. I've learned that confession leads to possesion! I will be postive at all times no matter what the situation might be like. I will never tell myself I can't do it but rather that I can and I will do it!!! The Lord said if I really have faith in Him...nothing will be impossible for me! No matter how a sitation or circumstance looks like...I will continue to trust Him. Sometimes it's really hard and other times it's not. I know He is real because I have experienced Him in my life and because I have way too many answered prayers!
Other things on my mind is wondering if like the books I read....love can really happen. Love at first sight and all. Or if there's love at first and then no love later on. But then I realize that it's the same with the Lord. We always need to continue to have a first love for Him and each other.
Sometimes time just flies....and doesn't give u a chance to realize where you're at and what you're doing. That's what's on my mind lately....

Declaration Of Faith

I'm a part of the fellowship of the unashamed...
I have Holy Spirit Power...
I stepped over the line...the decision has been made...I'm a disciple of His...
I won't look back, let up, slow down, back away or be still...
My past redeemed...my present makes sense...my future is secure...
I'm finished and done with low-living,side-walking, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tame vision,worldly-talking,cheap-giving,and thrawt goals.
I no longer need preeminance, position,promotion, applause, or popularity...
I don't have to be right, first, tops, praised, regarded, or rewarded...
I now live by faith, lean on His Presence, walk by patience, I am uplifted by prayer, enlabored in power...
My face is set...my goal is heaven...my road is narrow...my way is rough...my companions are few...my God reliable...my mission is clear...
I cannot be bought...compromised...detoured...lured away...deluded or delayed...
I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice...hesitate in the presence of my adversaries...negotiate at the table of my enemies, or ponder at the pool of popularity...
I won't give up, shut up until I stayed up,I prayed, I preached for the cause of Christ!
I'm a disciple of Jesus!!!
---Worth Dying For---
Well, I'm new to this whole blogging stuff....but i just feel like blogging!
And I can glorify my God through this blog